When they are busy to update their relationship, I am busy to fight on how to build up my family again. It has been scattered into fine pieces. I can’t even see how it can be normal again.
I tried to smile. Fake every emotion.
Seems like I let go every problems. I don’t give a damn on it anymore.
What is FAMILY all about? Do I actually have it since in beginning?
What is LOVE? Do I received it?
What is HAPPINESS? Living in fake while we are totally suffering?
I’m tired with this, mama. I’m so tired. I can’t hold this anymore.
WHY WE CANNOT BE NORMAL FAMILY??